Early Mornings (OPEN)

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"What happens is certainly not pleasant and I would not wish it on anyone,"

Well, that was a given. Forcing the body to change it's entire makeup once a month was never going to be fun, especially when there was absolutely no choice in the matter, but from an outside perspective it seemed fascinating.

"But it isn't far from what you would expect. The process of change is not pleasant, in fact that could describe the whole ordeal."

"With a wolf's mind instead of your own you'd hardly remember a thing. So what's so bad about it?" Sure, the actual change part didn't seem nice, but everything he'd read on the topic suggested that a werewolf didn't have his regular thinking human mind, which Severus had experience first hand two years ago, so surely then, if the wolf couldn't remember the human life, the human shouldn't remember the wolf experience, either. As it was, the werewolf across from him wasn't providing many answers. Sure, he was answering his questions, but as vaguely as possible.

"There's a potion for that - from a couple of years back. Why don't you use it?" Really, it should have been Dumbledore's responsibility to provide it, but the old man clearly never considered doing that, did he?

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The next question that Severus asked was not pleasant either and Remus found himself wishing that this topic had not been brought up. Maybe it would have been better to revise in silence - then again, it was worth trying to try and get on with the other student he told himself in order to make answering these questions seem less difficult. Besides, he supposed that Severus had every right t be concerned and want to know, considering what happened two years ago. So instead, Remus did his best to answer the questions for the other student while being guarded in the answers that he gave.

"Would you want to live with the fear that once a month, you would kill someone. Even if that person was your closest friend? Granted with the precautions that are taken, it's not likely but the fear is still there." Remus replied, calmly, his quill hovering restlessly above the parchment, moving almost as if writing in the air.
"Besides, there are more lasting effects than just the transformation. A werewolf will attack itself in the absence of people to bite." Remus said calmly, trying to talk about the subject as if it didn't come from personal experience.

As Severus mentioned a potion, Remus' brows pulled down in a slight frown and he looked at his parchment. He knew of the Wolfsbane potion, however it was incredibly complex and expensive to make - there was no easy way to get hold of it and Remus looked back up at the Slythering.
"The potion is not easy to make. It's also fairly expensive considering the ingredients. There's not really any chance that I'll be able to get the potion." Remus answered.

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"Would you want to live with the fear that once a month, you would kill someone. Even if that person was your closest friend? Granted with the precautions that are taken, it's not likely but the fear is still there."

Well then, he'd have nothing to worry about, would he? Perhaps Lily... he wouldn't want to see her hurt. Stupid thought, he growled to himself and shoved the thought roughly from his mind. He couldn't keep thinking things like that. "There're so many crimes where reporters emphasize 'mans primal urges' etc," Severus smirked. He was clearly making the Gryffindor uncomfortable now. "Maybe there should be more werewolves in the world. It might lower the crime rate." Actually, that wasn't an impossible thought, now he really took a moment to think on in, though he was only saying it to see how far the Gryffindor was willing to go in his attempt to be friendly.

"Besides, there are more lasting effects than just the transformation. A werewolf will attack itself in the absence of people to bite."

Severus leaned back and looked closely at the student opposite, considering those words. Really? That was... interesting. He would never have thought werewolves to be so... Well, was the blood lust really that bad they'd willingly draw their own? That was one little tit-bit of information that Severus made sure to remember for later.

"The potion is not easy to make. It's also fairly expensive considering the ingredients. There's not really any chance that I'll be able to get the potion." 

Severus smirked again. "As a student it should be Dumbledore's job to provide it. Unless he doesn't care about student safety, that is." Severus didn't like the old crack-pot by any length, but this just further justified his reasons for doing so. The headmaster clearly cared little for the health and well-being of his students, the werewolf included, if he didn't provide a potion like Wolfsbane. "The school has it's own potionsmaster so it's not like they there's no one he can ask." Slughorn was useless though, so Severus wouldn't be surprised if the fool wasn't capable of making the potion. Wolfsbane was seen as one of the hardest potions to make and required a lot of commitment... that drew Severus's curiosity to it and made him wonder just how hard it could actually be.

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Remus watched Severus as they conversed, curious as to how the other student might respond to his words about why it was so bad becoming a wolf once a month. He suspected that the other student would understand - everyone had someone close to them but Severus didn't seem to show any signs of understanding and his next words brought a frown to Remus' face. He did not agree with Severus' words and his calm gaze scanned the other student, searching for any sign that he did not believe his spoken words either.
"I don't think that would be the case." The Gryffindor said, softly.

Feeling uncomfortable under the gaze of Severus, Remus flicked through his book, carefully. It would be a good idea to move away from the subject, he decided. But before he could move the topic, Severus spoke on the matter of the potion and Remus gave a little shrug.
"Hogwarts has limited funds and they can't be expected to spend more on me than other students." It would have been nice if he could have the potion but Remus wasn't going to hold that against the school or the headmaster.
"Besides, I do not know what reasons there are but I am sure that there will be a number of good points as to the reasoning." He said softly.

Flickering his gaze back to the book, Remus turned the page again, not really reading but using the book as a prop to help give him time to think on how to progress the conversation away from his condition.
"Do you plan to take a job involving potions after Hogwarts?" He questioned, jumping on this subject as it was the potions book that he was scanning through.

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"Hogwarts has limited funds and they can't be expected to spend more on me than other students."

Severus scoffed and narrowly avoided the urge to roll his eyes. "So they can plant a rare, magical tree, but they can't provide a potion?" He smirked, pretending to be oblivious to the obvious discomfort of the Gryffindor. For one, rare moment, Severus felt like he had the upper hand, even if it was just a slight one. "That's the problem with Gryffindors. You act so nice. Don't ask, don't get, and all that." Not that there were many people in the school who would go up to the headmaster and ask for something like that, but still, he was rubbing it in and seeing what sort of reaction he could get in return.

"Do you plan to take a job involving potions after Hogwarts?" 

Severus sat silently for a few long moments, just watching the boy near him. He didn't look away from the book, and he was going to any length to change the topic. Clearly, he wasn't comfortable in discussing his lycanthropy. Severus fought back a smirk. Pity. "I prefer dark arts." Let him stew that one over for a while.